Day 2

Made up my mind. Not going to keep dragging. Not going to time waste. Not going to do all the stupid shit anymore.

If it’s meant to be, then it’s meant to be. Like Heinz always told me, “What yours is yours, if it’s not yours, you should leave it and not take it”.

I am obviously dumb for sure. I am going tomorrow.

Wasted my whole day in Reservoir. It’s a good place actually. Went to Coles and got an Eclair from a bakery shop.

In Melbourne for two months

My heart was in South Africa, but I landed in Melbourne, Australia today 20.12.2015, with no plans at all. I am just going to blog down all the stuff I have did in Melbourne, everyday as a diary.
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I don’t know why I came. I don’t want to be at where I was supposed to be. Or maybe this shall be the last time I will ever land myself in Melbourne. I have been sad for so long. Kept making the same mistakes. Haven’t figure the way out but just wanting the easy way out.

Currently staying in Reservoir. Freezingly cold without a heater or a bed! 

I think Nick didn’t want me to stay at his place. I don’t know why. I am too lost. I think it is too difficult for me to find love and care from him or anyone else. I knew Ben is long gone now.

I am missing this dog sooo much now.